This is my story.
On the 28th of December 2009 my little girl Holly was born after a very short 45 minutes labour/ She is my second child and had 3 siblings 2 brothers and a sister.
For 3 months everything was great. she was perfectly healthy and happy. On the morning of the 13th of March 2010 Holly woke at 7:30, as usual her mum popped her dummy in and went to get her bottle. Her mum fell back asleep while the bottle cooled as Holly had fallen asleep too.
At 11:30 she woke up and went to check on why she hadn’t started crying on her feed yet and when she got to the cot she could see that she had left.
I was woken to the screams then it all become a a blur. Paramedics where giving my little baby CPR and I was helpless. I was so useless, her mum was rushed up to hospital in a police van chasing the ambulance.
I had to stay and give a statement. The police were sealing off my house and guarding the door. Eventually they let me go and they took me up. When I arrived the doctors had just explained that she had gone and would we like to see her. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do, she was so small and my heart broke. How would we tell the kids?
We had a small graveside ceremony based around Angels for the kids and a small pink coffin. She is in a rose garden with all the other Angels.
It took over a year for the PF to send us a letter stating there was no cause of death. So it would be rules as SIDS. Two years later we had a little girl, Riley, and she is what keeps me going.
I can see holly in her everyday/ I’ll always miss her but I feel happy now when I think of her. I focus on what I had and it gets me through.
Thank you for reading my story